Eagle and Fish

the sea!
Originally uploaded by sober tomorrow.

I can't remember what we
were talking about,
Rui suddenly asked me.
'Would you rather have a stressful high-flying job in the city or have a low paying job and live by the sea?'
Hmm.. Something to that effect. I forgot the exact words.
Anyway, I visualized a bird soaring in the skies and a fish swimming in the sea when I heard that.

It's not easy to choose.
I've not worked for a long time, and I don't think I like staying/am able to stay at one place for a long time.
I aspire to be a beach bum.
But that is only on paper.
The truth is, I can't just wave away the social norms(well, I can actually), the responsibilities, and I guess more importantly, the need for new things/stimulation/inspiration.
If I do become a bummer, I will most probably feel 悔しい 'regrettable'. (I can't find the perfect word for it in English)

An eagle can soar in the sky, see the world from the top.
But it cannot stop and rest for too long.
A fish can swim or let the currents take it wherever.
But it cannot survive out of the water.
It will not know the sky or land.

I want to be a fish in the ocean,
but I know I can't do that for long.
I can't soar, because I am not an eagle,
only a sparrow perhaps.

It's most difficult when you are neither here nor there.