Life

Seems like ALMOST ALL my friends, back home or here, including myself, are down in the dumps these days.
Trouble at work, in love,
basically in life.

Semi-revelation with Rui yesterday.
I guess too much happened and I really don't see the point in going into details anymore. Illness, family matters, relative-relationships, work
/study, people, etc.
Life sometimes rains shit on you, but you have to move on because there is simply no point in standing in a pile of shit.
I realised something I deemed important now can just be a faint memory later on.
If I make it so.
It's all in the mind.

Rui is also having a difficult time. I know because it involves leaving or staying for another year here.
Her case is different as it is up to the people in the mothership to decide.

Even for myself, I know there will be this feeling of regret to either decision.
Putting myself in my mum's shoes, I know she wants me to go back. Especially when she found out about me being asthmatic now. (I had an attack on the first night home and another one week later)
And I do feel very guilty about deciding to stay for 1 more year.
She must be so stressed and heart broken.
(Ok, enough, or I'm going to cry again)

Even K, who I thought she was all decided on staying and had it all 'planned' out.
Seems like she had a terrible 2 weeks while I was away.
Luckily you called last night. Any sooner and you will only get a 'please leave a message' with a beep.

Well, as said, we all have come to terms with life's sudden turn of events.

I must say I'm full of admiration for YP and KK.
Maybe YP doesn't realise our very normal and casual conversation left me thinking a lot. I'm very 'wowed' by her energy and perception of life.
Well, KK was very tired by all his CNY activities but he's still the same nice, gentle, logical and eloquent brother I knew since November.

For the Hachinin, fuzzy, YP, KK, Zaku, Leng and the rest whom I was unable to meet, all the best for whatever you have set out to do.
I'll be back in the summer of 2006.
Wait for me.

Some treats to look forward to in this year:
I've decided to go snowboarding with K next winter.
Rui and I will go to Aichi Expo if she has to stay for another year.
I must start looking out for classes to take during my free time.

HL: I think I'm going to take up fine arts instead of arts management.