Do you have a place to go back to?

Where would that be?
What kind of a place would it be?

Is it the wide grassland, with endless blue skies?
Is it the sunny breezy island facing the vast blue seas?
Or the bright lights of the big city?

I started this post a few days ago but couldn't find time to write.
Now I've forgotten what I wanted to write....

It was because of the conversation below.

GL says: (11:31:11 PM)
   the one downstairs don't have, but it's very nice and soft

GL says: (11:31:23 PM)
   but after three mornings of eating it, a bit tired of it too

fish says: (11:31:27 PM)
   hahaha

GL says: (11:31:32 PM)
   so, what's next

GL says: (11:31:46 PM)
   been trying to save money by cutting down on food $

fish says: (11:31:46 PM)
   i always want to eat everything when i go back. but when i get home. i a bit xianz

GL says: (11:32:14 PM)
   don't know why i spent that $5 ++ on starbucks just now, not real food...just loads of sugar.

GL says: (11:32:22 PM)
   why is that so?

fish says: (11:32:43 PM)
   i guess, like, sometimes we just want.

GL says: (11:32:48 PM)
   after i came back from mongolia, i kept eating a lot...it's only after 2 weeks that i cut down like back to normal

GL says: (11:33:00 PM)
   just felt hungry all the time

fish says: (11:33:18 PM)
   i think i am also.... like u say going into an opulent?? lifestyle

fish says: (11:33:57 PM)
   for the big intake of food. i think it's becos of familiarity.

fish says: (11:34:27 PM)
   u just want to eat things familiar to u. i guess

GL says: (11:34:28 PM)
   now getting abit ok...although still miss that crazy freedom in Mongolia, but after 1 mth, have to get back down to Earth, or to life here.

GL says: (11:34:33 PM)
   yah

fish says: (11:34:37 PM)
   and maybe becos u are tired

GL says: (11:34:38 PM)
   it's quite incredible

GL says: (11:35:10 PM)
   and it's funny too because it felt strange walking into mac and ordering big breakfast 2 days ago...even though i was only away for 1 mth

GL says: (11:35:20 PM)
   felt like another lifetime

fish says: (11:35:30 PM)
   i sort of know what u mean.

fish says: (11:35:42 PM)
   i guess it will be very weird for me when i go home

GL says: (11:35:46 PM)
   trying to save $ again.

GL says: (11:35:57 PM)
   are u ready to come back?

fish says: (11:36:18 PM)
   i don't know, i just had this weird feeling in me a few days ago.

fish says: (11:36:27 PM)
   that i am very used to my life here.

fish says: (11:36:43 PM)
   i'm not saying i don't want to go home though

GL says: (11:36:59 PM)
   yeah, the world is big, and the possibilities endless

GL says: (11:37:00 PM)
   shit

GL says: (11:37:29 PM)
   how long have you been away?

fish says: (11:38:56 PM)
   * years and maybe * weeks

GL says: (11:39:23 PM)
   it may not be impossible that you'll settle down there right?

fish says: (11:39:59 PM)
   at the moment, there not a high possibility.

fish says: (11:40:17 PM)
   no job, or boyfriend. hahahaha

GL says: (11:42:01 PM)
   do you find the place more interesting than back home?

fish says: (11:43:20 PM)
   i wouldn't compare them, they have their own merits. but i would say it's perhaps simpler here. or maybe because i am not really working as one of them

GL says: (11:45:22 PM)
   when will u be coming home? maybe can compare

fish says: (11:45:33 PM)
   why compare?

GL says: (11:45:50 PM)
   funny, listening to Michael buble's "home" now

GL says: (11:46:08 PM)
   i don't know ..it helps

fish says: (11:46:10 PM)
   it's scary when u are too mobile

GL says: (11:46:10 PM)
   to me

GL says: (11:46:15 PM)
   didn't know that before

GL says: (11:46:20 PM)
   how small our world is

GL says: (11:46:28 PM)
   yes

GL says: (11:46:33 PM)
   but it's good too

GL says: (11:46:37 PM)
   hard to say

GL says: (11:47:02 PM)
   u have a better idea of the world, but..at the same time...u have to find a balance

fish says: (11:47:04 PM)
   i know after being out for some time. there's definitely changes in me.

fish says: (11:47:21 PM)
   i wouldn't fit in as i would before.

GL says: (11:47:42 PM)
   never felt i fitted in

GL says: (11:47:43 PM)
   so

fish says: (11:48:35 PM)
   there is some level of fitting in. i don't know how to explain. but after being out, the fit has become worse.

fish says: (11:49:20 PM)
   but i dun think i fit very well here either. it's neither here nor there

GL says: (11:49:31 PM)
   maybe shd try some other country

fish says: (11:50:10 PM)
   i don't think i will fit anywhere.

GL says: (11:50:22 PM)
   there'll be a place

fish says: (11:50:39 PM)
   i've become too ... maybe not cynical, but just ... life is like that.

fish says: (11:50:49 PM)
   there's bound to be ups and downs.

fish says: (11:50:55 PM)
   anywhere

GL says: (11:52:04 PM)
   used to think that too, but change a bit..yeap, life is ups and downs, but now feel more activated..i don't know...

GL says: (11:52:09 PM)
   hard to explain

GL says: (11:52:45 PM)
   it's ok, maybe we shouldn't spend too much time talking about this.

fish says: (11:52:53 PM)
   i guess i go thru phases. now i think it's very important to find someone to be with. hahaha

GL says: (11:54:14 PM)
   heehee...when i was travelling, I think love is just an attraction thing...now..back home, after 1 mth of being RenXin, it's back to "how nice it will be to have a someone for a meaningful relationship"..although what meaningful means is hard to say.

fish says: (11:54:34 PM)
   renxin?

GL says: (11:54:34 PM)
   so how for u?

fish says: (11:54:43 PM)
   oh ren4 xin4

GL says: (11:54:45 PM)
   ren4 xin4

GL says: (11:54:47 PM)
   yes

GL says: (11:54:48 PM)
   

fish says: (11:54:53 PM)
   what for me?

GL says: (11:55:26 PM)
   now, what the heck u fools, being only with 1 person..and actually being unhappy..and struggling so hard when love is just monetary attraction.

GL says: (11:55:29 PM)
   yep

GL says: (11:56:05 PM)
   but back home, after a while, u can't help but feel more down-to-earth...more like living in a little fishbowl, and feeling contented..yucks right./

fish says: (11:56:15 PM)
   oh if i want to be with someone of course i want to be hapy. if not i'll just leave him. hahaha

GL says: (11:56:17 PM)
   momentaty

GL says: (11:56:33 PM)
   yeah, but a lot of ppl here just keeps hanging on

GL says: (11:56:39 PM)
   so

GL says: (11:56:42 PM)
   i don't know

fish says: (11:57:05 PM)
   no point being unhappy.

fish says: (11:57:18 PM)
   it's a feeling, difficult to explain

GL says: (11:57:19 PM)
   hard to say what the future will bring, but just live positively and be good, not make a mockery of life

GL says: (11:57:24 PM)
   yeah