Be careful of what you wish for....

KP wished for a boyfriend and someone confessed his feelings for her.
Too bad he is too young and would be a liability to her plans.
REJECT.
We sound so bad but it's true.

She doesn't want to stay in Japan.
He isn't worth the emotional roller coaster ride she will go through if they come together.
So why even bother.

I don't think I want to stay here either.
Even though Eda-shukan seems to think that I will stay on.
Which is why I don't bother to fill my blank love life now.
I don't know if this is responsible of me.
Or I am just sabotaging myself.

When I was back home, I stayed away from getting emotionally involved,
because I didn't know where I will be eventually.
And long-distance relationship just don't work for me.
I am too weak for that.

Even though I believe I will return home after this,
I'm not sure if I will leave home again.

A long time ago,
I wished I could travel the world,
Stay at each place to experience the life of the locals,
Earn my keep by waitressing or something like that.
I was 15, I was young.

The wish seems to be coming true.
Although I have only spent time in Japan and China.

Now,
I only wish to be happy.
I'm not sure how to do that yet.....